I’ve been all over the place and im trying to maintain who I ‘am. I hate this feeling.. When things change sometimes I just feel out of place an spiral out of control.. and I don’t like that. The things I want I don’t get, the people I adore I don’t get to hold onto and the world keeps spinning. I sound excited don’t I?
I need change
This is driving me crazy.
I'm without meaning.
im not anything special, nor any real significance or any real purpose, i care, love and try to be the best person I can be and that often leads me no where but i refuse to change. sometimes i think I have to change paces, but im tried of this image that im invulnerable, im just as wounded and as fucked up as everyone else.
i now sleep on the left side of my bed.
this was suppose to be a video..
but i sounded stupid. You’re lovely and im sorry those people are dumb, I’d love nothing more then to make plans with you because I’d follow through with them everyday <3
I wont change for time, i wont allow it to change me. i’ll press forward and never forget the late nights that never end, the days that I spent with my friends. Nothing gold will last forever, I’ll hold onto my youth with a righteous fervor. nineteen forever.
wrote some songs..
im feeling a bit bummed today :\
guess what else shares 747? An airplane <3
i sent a package today.
stickers, two pieces unlike anything i normally do.. and i get nervous because the postal service sucks.. and well i want you to get this.. when you see it you’ll see why… I’ve hinted it some in conversations.. and I think that some parts of this will really stand out. I signed.. and numbered them so if my art ever takes off :)
a buzzing in the future.
i want to get my other thigh tattooed, and id like for you to hold my hand.. its not that itll be hurt.. i just wanna hold your hand and get my thigh tattooed. Mainly i just wanna hold your hand.. tattoo or not.. but i do want a tattoo and this is sounding silly then again im tired.
you make my day.
day, in day out, sunset to sunrise.
i work three 12 hr shifts with no communicaton with the outside world. i dont know whats happening with anyone… thats a bit bothersome. My mind wonders as much as I do during that time. I can’t stay still, when we’re not busy I’m moving looking for something to do listening for someone to call over the radio for me. I often have to walk briskly from one side of the...
i daydream way too much.